Blog 25: Why do we hurt people that care about us?

This may be yet another middle-aged guy thing.

Recent events have me questioning myself and a new person in my life.

I have too much on my plate, so I deemed it necessary to take a break from social media in order to FOCUS on turning my new place into a home. During this period, I will also be finishing the last round of edits on my manuscript, which I also believe to be a reasonable step. Additionally, it is possible that I have reached the point of exhaustion, as I cannot remember the last time I took even an entire day off or got away from things for a while. In my estimation, taking a break from everyone who can INTERFERE with those goals may not be healthy, yet it seems as though that is what I wish to do.

Attempting to understand what is driving you is never easy.

In my case, I am stressing over MONEY and TIME; but most people have those worries. When I was younger, those things cropped up from time to time but now it seems more frequent. I have had minor health problems and minor injuries that have negatively affected my projected timeline for the COMPLETION of my goals. This is an ongoing nagging FRUSTRATION that has been plaguing me for the last six months. EXPECTATIONS are my problem right now. If you do not have expectations, then you cannot be let down. Life rarely goes as expected, but knowing these words often is not enough to stave off stress.

My VISION of the life that I have been working toward, did not include the possibility of a significant other for reasons that are graphically detailed in my book. Instead, I imagined a life where I would write, travel, lead a healthier lifestyle, and only engage in casual sexual encounters. That is my idea of a SIMPLE PEACEFUL life that would ultimately make me HAPPY. This latest sexy cutie threatens my PLAN, and I have DOUBTS about my ability to meet her long-term needs.

If you allow yourself to stray off course into a relationship, you must have PATIENCE; and patience is something that is in very short supply with me these days.

We all love the feeling of being loved, and we can cling to the new exciting adventure just to keep that feeling. Lately however, I have found myself taking a PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE approach to this wonderful person, as my heart and head wrestle for supremacy. When I am pragmatic, my comments often tear at her fantasy of our future, causing her to be unhappy. I do not like myself when this happens; but it does happen, and quite regularly. There are a great many obstacles in our way, if we were to attempt a serious committed relationship, and I question whether I have the ENERGY or DESIRE to try it one more time. Sometimes, I actually RESENT the intrusion in my life by this beautiful young soul, and we have talked at length about my mixed feelings towards a long-term relationship; yet she PERSISTS, believing that we were brought together for a reason by a divine influence. Her beliefs allow for her to construct a happily ever after story that she is pursuing RELENTLESSLY. Anyone that reads my stuff knows that I do not believe in such things, so her ideology bothers me as well. I all too often view her caring interest as a DISRUPTION due to her INCESSANT need for communication that I view as unnecessary blathering via telephone or text.

I know that I am someone whose singular FOCUS allows me to COMPLETE things.

I know that I may have unrealistic EXPECTATIONS, and I am trying to make a conscious effort to swim with the current more often.

I know that my PLAN for a SIMPLE PEACEFUL life may get lonely or tiresome but should I not at least try it?

I know I am not PERFECTLY happy, but can a perfectionist ever truly be? I would like to find out though.

I know that my PATIENCE is directly tied to my stress level and I must get better at managing stress.

I know that my planned lifestyle changes will improve my ENERGY level.

I know that my internal CONFLICT will persist until I either commit or withdraw from this relationship.

I am very conscious of the fact that I am not being FAIR in this relationship.

I would MISS her if she was no longer in my life.

There is a fine line between doing what you know is best for yourself, and being selfish or narcissistic.

My book:

Ms. Creant: The Wrong Doers!

Life with Women: the long awaited instruction manual.

Talks of relationships, health, life, biology, philosophy, sociology, theology, genetics- even physics as well as how HOW SEVERELY DAMAGED THE AUTHOR IS.

I hope your biggest problem is that someone cares about you.

E. A.

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Blog 16: TRUE LOVE and the key to keeping it alive.

The secret might just be never allowing COMPLACENCY to enter your relationship.

Easier said; THAN DONE!

 

TRUE LOVE, what is it?

That old couple sitting on a bench holding hands after a lifetime together- true love is in their eyes. He looks into her eyes and still sees the beauty that once was. She looks into his eyes and still sees the man who could raise her heart rate with a glance. She still makes him laugh and he still makes her feel safe.

My book looks at relationships in each decade in our lives. Teens with raging hormones learning about ATTRACTION; to twenty-somethings learning about SELECTION; on to the thirty-somethings learning about SETTLING and everything afterward to our final days.

The bio-chemistry of the pair bond is explained and science proves that it begins to sag after about two years, so true love must be more than the biological responses that kick-started the relationship.

TRUE LOVE begins with a GOOD MATCH.

Opposites may attract and each individual in the relationship may serve to offset the other’s negatives- creating a BALANCED COUPLE that is better and stronger together than individually.

However, these couples do not seem to be able to weather life’s storms, for as soon as the going gets tough and the couple is divided on an issue, the worst character traits of each surface often creating wounds that may never heal.

A good match will be less about initial ATTRACTION and more about quality SELECTION and SETTLING carefully. To accomplish this, you must TRULY KNOW the other.

COMMONALITY means that you will spend more time together as a couple, deriving enjoyment from the same things and you will have fewer things to argue about.

Over time this couple associates JOY with being in the company of their significant other. There is nowhere else that they would rather be. They are never bored. They have absolutely no reason to consider being unfaithful as they are SATISFIED on every level.

This may be how to BEGIN the journey to TRUE LOVE.

Take the test to see how you fair.

Upbringing:                                                                                       [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Education:                                                                                        [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Skill sets:                                                                                          [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Work ethic:                                                                                       [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Morals:                                                                                             [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Scruples:                                                                                          [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Personality Types:                                                                           [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on sex:                                                                                   [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on pets:                                                                                 [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on foods:                                                                               [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on children:                                                                           [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on lifestyle:                                                                            [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on physical health:                                                                [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on emotional health:                                                              [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on mental health:                                                                   [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on spiritual health:                                                                 [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on politics:                                                                             [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on society:                                                                             [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on mankind:                                                                          [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on the environment:                                                              [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on television programs:                                                         [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on film choices:                                                                      [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on music:                                                                               [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on live entertainment:                                                            [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on reading:                                                                            [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

Views on sports:                                                                              [  ] Similar       [  ] Different

With the passage of time, the world changes people.

Question: How did that old couple holding hands on the bench, weather so many of life’s storms without allowing events to damage their relationship?

ANSWER: THEIR COMMONALITY ALWAYS PULLED THEM THROUGH!

This couple is capable of living in a tent, cooking canned foods on a camp stove with no money and yet they remain HAPPY to be there with each other.

They have FAITH in each other so they BELIEVE that things will improve.

They have the PATIENCE to wait for brighter days.

They TRUST that both will eventually succeed in their endeavors.

They RESPECT the chosen path of their partner.

Their partner is a PERFECT match for them.

Their partner never required CHANGE.

They never had EXPECTATIONS of their partner.

They ACKNOWLEDGE their own CHOICES.

They are GRATEFUL for their partner CHOOSING them.

They are CONTENT with the CHOICE they made.

They LEARNED and GREW together.

They KNOW how FORTUNATE they are.

They are THANKFUL for their luck.

They were incapable of MANIPULATING the other.

They never had to LIE to the other.

They never wanted to or needed to keep SECRETS from the other.

They were capable of total HONESTY with each other.

They APPRECIATE all things- big or small that their partner does for them.

They WORKED for and achieved TRUE LOVE because it was EASY for them due to COMMONALITY.

My book:

Ms. Creant: The Wrong Doers!

Life with Women: the long awaited instruction manual.

Talks of relationships, health, life, biology, philosophy, sociology, theology, genetics- even physics as well as HOW TRUE LOVE IS POSSIBLE IF YOU CHOOSE WISELY.

Happiness is for the brave among us.

You have to take some risks to achieve happiness.

You can minimize those risks by not thinking with your glands.

I TRULY LOVE my readers.

Have a great week and the next time you say “I LOVE YOU”; really mean it.

E. A.